i asked for prompts from friends on facebook (thank you) they are the italics rest is the poem picture of a temple on a jungle hill, jeremy looking up through jungle brush a temple is painted on a rock that pierces bright clouds i carried my orange banner many miles to ascend the hill and place my flag among the works of the great romantics: blake, nabokov, plath standing at the foot of god’s pagoda it feels it may vanish if i take even one step closer a mirage a photograph a dream letter to the weather on a hot day, stephanie you give a soggy grey glow and i sit in the greenhouse you had me sticky in bed this morning, my feet eager for the cold shower water finally drenching a reluctant spine you sucked my will to achieve but neither could i mourn sunk in the hazy doldrums of your wet heat talking to a stranger outside a restaurant, jenny i was going to trudge back into drizzly swelter (the host said “one hour”) when I saw you. something about the angle of your phone said “available” you came from the same state as me our brothers competed in soccer “seven people died climbing everest this year” you mention. i look down, holding an orange flag i see the detail of the fabric, not orange at all but thin red stitches over golden yellow silk. the table is ready feeling of leaving a place you’ll never come back to, tammy wet eyes scan the horizon a smile on my lips life isn’t long enough to rebuild your wonders or short enough for me to stay here forever so i fall to my knees gathering two tight clenched fistfuls of your dusty soil letting wind catch the particles slips from grasp recover or reconstruct familiarity, elizabeth a peppery flavor to the splash of crimson in your gold nasturtium feels familiar. given even the purest water that bouquet will wither. just down the path there is an emerald hillside where spicy flowers grow. these are new flowers with the same name. growing up, mo remember when we were kids living on the north side? things were complicated back then but now things are simple but now we’re told they have to be. i used to wander in the hills of Oakland listening to deltron on a panasonic portable CD player two double A batteries lost somewhere in the electrocrackle of a hot vintage porn swarming with dream life spirits and hallucinations. trees don’t get me as high any more but i’ll still go half on sack with you, dusting off my purple motive. do we have to settle down? i want us to settle up. to put the same orange flowers on that one ikea table every day to make it new. shopping at Costco, vikram is this being grown up? when i push the cart aisle to aisle drive it like it's stolen because we’re gonna expense this: brownie bites coconut oil, olive oil, twenty dozen eggs, spices, cereals, earplugs, jam. there’s a proud snap-worthy moment when we pull up to the register, cart filled past capacity the man at the door signs off on our load and we start wheeling it towards the landfill a couple of ants. a golden retriever named Theo, summer bleached targaryen mane you were the star at graduation the falcor in my neverending insta story what made me happy were your pouty eyes your triumphant shlump back into the dog bed home from a walk for those three days before my date you were the perfect digital wingman if i walked you, you’d be grateful but if not it would be chill too